Brunei National Tragedy...our tragedy..

Brunei helicopter crash kills 12 Twelve people have been killed and two injured after a helicopter crashed in Brunei, officials say. The helicopter was carrying 11 military cadets and three crew home after training in the jungle. The defence ministry said the Bell 212 helicopter came down in Ulu Belait as it headed for the capital, Bandar Seri Begawan. Brunei's ruling monarch Sultan Hassanal Bolkiah visited the two surviving cadets in hospital. They are reported to be in a stable condition. In a statement on its website, the Ministry of Defence said Sultan Bolkiah had extended his condolences to the families of the victims. "His majesty also prayed that the souls of the victims would be blessed and placed with the pious," it said. No reason has yet been given for the crash, but the ministry has said it is investigating. Brunei is a small, oil-rich sultanate on the north coast of the island of Borneo (http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-asia-18936400) e

upon hearing the news i felt my heart stopped for a little while.. i'm truly shocked by the tragedy especially when my friend was one of the victim. even though we only known each other around +3years but he's a good friend of mine. a cheerful and a caring lad. saturday early in the morning, together with some friends, we visit his family to say our condolence...we went to his grave to pay respect and pray to God that he would be blessed and placed with the pious in the afterlife..saying a last goodbye was really hard for me but God had said it before in the Al-Quran "every living thing will eventually die" it just a matter of time for us to leave this world.... IN MEMORIES OF A GREAT SENIOR, FRIEND & BROTHER...RIP MAY ALLAH BLESS U IN THE AFTERLIFE..

The Book. THINK BIG??

This book was recommended by a friend, so i thought i'm gonna give it a try. firstly i download it tru internet as an E-book like he did, but days goes by i still havent read a page of it. then comes yesterday's evening, he received a txt msg from 'Times Square's Best Eastern Bookstore' saying that his order has arrived (he ordered this book from the store before he download it from the internet). upon hearing from him that he didnt need it anymore, i told him that i would like to have it, so i did. i fetch it today's afternoon from the bookstore for BND$23.80, not bad for the price of a beneficial book rather than buying a novel.

why did i buy the book when the free downloaded E-book in my laptop stays unclicked? . reason?

for me watching laptop monitor filled with only words is kind of depressing, with an access to browse the internet(facebook, youtube, plurk, twitter, etc) it turns into distraction, i cant focus on reading. a mobile computer as laptop, mobility is an issue compared to a pocket book, i cant read it while on bed, anywhere or whenever i feel i wanted to.

i can give as many excuses as i want, but i think the main problem is motivation. the lack of motivation to read the book. i have it by free,people tend to dis-appreciate things they gained for free, things they gain without losing something. so i set it in my mind "i spent money on this book. if i dont read it, it's a loss".

reading a few pages from this book somehow made me think, what make us different from those who succeed in life?. why they can make it? how about me?. i cant tell u much of the content yet but this book looks promising. i'm looking forward to finish reading it =)

Mental illness..

i think i need to see a psychiatrist...
no, i'm not crazy..but i realize i do have some mental issues lately...

1. Insomnia, i'm very sleepy right now but my subconscious refuse to sleep.

2. Paranoia, earlier at the meeting with colleagues and supervisors, there were a few incidents occurred to me,i'm still thinking about it till now, i just refuse to not to think about it. i tried to divert my attentions by watching TVs etc but hell..it isnt working.

3. Depression. Anxiety, Insomnia and Paranoia generating stress..i'm just too depress right now..

4. Generalize Social Phobia, Social Anxiety disorder. i'm never good with public communication skills, it's not that i didnt do anything to improve it but i'm just to0 damn nervous while speaking in public...how am i supposed to do my 'Community Outreach Project' like this..for this i think deep in my heart i blame some of my family members who used to made fun of me in front of the public..i do have a very low self esteem.

You are a FOOL

if i know nothing, i'll say i dont know. if i'm not sure about something, i'll say i dont know. if i know something but there's no reliable reference to it, i'll say i dont know. if that makes me a fool who knows nothing, thaT'S because i'm a fool.

Past 12 midnight.

it's already past 12 at midnight, my birthday had officially ended. the magic of birthday is the same as Cinderella's shoes, it'll be gone as soon as the clock tick on 12am lol.

a big thanks to my family for the surprise cake and mini event and thanks to aunts, cousins, friends for the greeting.

as for my birthday celebration it was just a mini event where my family gathered together with a simple birthday cake and a family set KFC however i do really appreciate it. it meant more and really a heart warming moment when u gather around with ur family on a dining table. personally this is the best birthday party then dancing on the dance floor with strangers, but of course everyone had their own way.

Friday 13th

1989, Friday, January 13th, 0940 am. It was the day i was born into this world. For most of people Friday 13th is the day to be feared, the day of bad luck and the cursed day. however, to me it's the day of my life, it's my holiday, it's my sacred day, it's my celebration day.

Happy Birthday to me =).

Past, Present, Future..

some said "dont look at the past as it's already happened, dont look at the future as it's yet to come.." but the past made me the man i hv bcome, preparing me for the future that's soon to come..

the past is my teacher..the present is my research..and let the future determine my answer.. :)