Mental illness..

i think i need to see a psychiatrist...
no, i'm not crazy..but i realize i do have some mental issues lately...

1. Insomnia, i'm very sleepy right now but my subconscious refuse to sleep.

2. Paranoia, earlier at the meeting with colleagues and supervisors, there were a few incidents occurred to me,i'm still thinking about it till now, i just refuse to not to think about it. i tried to divert my attentions by watching TVs etc but hell..it isnt working.

3. Depression. Anxiety, Insomnia and Paranoia generating stress..i'm just too depress right now..

4. Generalize Social Phobia, Social Anxiety disorder. i'm never good with public communication skills, it's not that i didnt do anything to improve it but i'm just to0 damn nervous while speaking in public...how am i supposed to do my 'Community Outreach Project' like this..for this i think deep in my heart i blame some of my family members who used to made fun of me in front of the public..i do have a very low self esteem.

You are a FOOL

if i know nothing, i'll say i dont know. if i'm not sure about something, i'll say i dont know. if i know something but there's no reliable reference to it, i'll say i dont know. if that makes me a fool who knows nothing, thaT'S because i'm a fool.

Past 12 midnight.

it's already past 12 at midnight, my birthday had officially ended. the magic of birthday is the same as Cinderella's shoes, it'll be gone as soon as the clock tick on 12am lol.

a big thanks to my family for the surprise cake and mini event and thanks to aunts, cousins, friends for the greeting.

as for my birthday celebration it was just a mini event where my family gathered together with a simple birthday cake and a family set KFC however i do really appreciate it. it meant more and really a heart warming moment when u gather around with ur family on a dining table. personally this is the best birthday party then dancing on the dance floor with strangers, but of course everyone had their own way.

Friday 13th

1989, Friday, January 13th, 0940 am. It was the day i was born into this world. For most of people Friday 13th is the day to be feared, the day of bad luck and the cursed day. however, to me it's the day of my life, it's my holiday, it's my sacred day, it's my celebration day.

Happy Birthday to me =).

Past, Present, Future..

some said "dont look at the past as it's already happened, dont look at the future as it's yet to come.." but the past made me the man i hv bcome, preparing me for the future that's soon to come..

the past is my teacher..the present is my research..and let the future determine my answer.. :)

just a little thought...

‎"there's a thin line between an ambition & a dream..without ability, an ambition will remain as a dream" -Razali Salam ,2011

"if there's no trust in a relationship, why bother falling in love with em" -Razali Salam, 2011.


"i can't give u diamonds, i can't give u golds..but my heart will forever be yours..." -Razali Salam, 2011.

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